do you remember these strings of words?

kulari ke hutan kemudian teriakku
kulari ke pantai kemudian menyanyiku
sepi.. sepi,, sendiri, aku benci
aku ingin bingar, aku ingin di pasar
bosan aku dengan penat
dan enyah saja kau pekat
seperti berjelaga jika kusendiri
pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai!
biar mengaduh sampai gaduh
ada malaikat menyulam jaring laba-laba belang di tembok keraton putih
kenapa tak goyangkan saja loncengnya
biar terdera..
atau aku harus lari ke hutan, belok ke pantai?

…..

perempuan datang atas nama cinta
bunda pergi karena cinta
atas dirinya digenangi air racun jingga
adalah…
wajahmu seperti bulan lelap tidur di hatimu
yang berdinding kelam dan kedinginan
ada apa dengannya?
meninggalkan hati untuk dicaci
percaya…
sampai darah ke lututpun aku tak percaya
lalu…
rumput tersabit
sekali ini aku lihat karya Surga
dari mata seorang hawa
percaya…
tak tahu…
ada apa dengan cinta?
dan aku akan kembali dalam satu purnama
untuk mempertanyakan kembali cintanya
bukan untuknya, bukan untuk siapa
tapi untukku
karena aku ingin kamu!
itu saja.

-poem was found by googling, sorry i forget the link-

please meet the new coffee recipe from our shop

ingredients

2 sdt kopi ‘aroma’ jenis robusta

1 sdt gula pasir

1 cangkir air panas

1 hela nafas panjang

1 obrolan via telpon sama si ibuk

3 pikiran positif dan optimis

5 buah kesabaran

how to serve

campur jadi satu, ingat seduh kopi dulu dengan air panas baru gula pasirnya dan seterusnya yg lainnya..

kopi legowo siap disajikan, enjoy while hot..

agak merasa krisis pede, krisis diri, krisis-apa-saja-yang-bisa-disebutkan belakangan ini. saya sendiri juga kurang tau apa sebabnya. semua tampak normal saja tapi ada sesuatu yang terasa janggal, entah apa itu saya sendiri belum juga nemuin sampai saat ini. apakah ini yang disebut “nearly-quarter-life-syndrome”?? hahaha, ngga kayaknya, terlalu berlebihan kalau yang itu.

cukup tersentak ketika temen di lab ngedumel sendiri, mengeluh sendiri, tapi tiba-tiba saja entah kenapa meralat segala ucapannnya sendiri dengan berkata

kenapa juga mengeluh dari tadi, kalo dipikir-pikir yang kurang dari kita sekarang ini apa coba??

makan masih kerasa enak biar murah juga, futsal masih bisa ketawa biar capek juga.. etc, dsb, dll

spontan saya langsung menyahut.. betul!!, saya jadi ingat sama problem krisis-entah-apa yang saya alami sekarang ini, dan memang…

tampaknya harus lebih banyak belajar untuk mensyukuri segala sesuatu yang terjadi saat ini di sekitar saya. mari kita nikmati hidup ini tanpa syarat apapun, tanpa harus ada syarat kaya, syarat banyak uang, syarat ganteng, syarat keluarga terhormat, syarat pekerjaan bergengsi, syarat bibit-bobot-bebet, whatever. we are best as we are, just give our best and lets enjoy this life without any conditions. just enjoy..

-nang-
written at june 20 in the lab while thinking of something-unknown-crisis

Recently, this song is always in my playlist. Split Screen Sadness by John Mayer, taken from the Heavier Things album. Awesome song, if i could say. Honestly i still cant figure out what is the meaning of ’split screen sadness’ john mayer has said. But if we read the lyric completely, the song tell the story about two persons apart although they feel that they need each other. ok, maybe not each other, but the man is trying to put them back together. Sort of cliche old story but distance complicate the story, yes, distance is the matter. Maybe ’split screen’ is the way john mayer figuring the distance between. When we saw movie, sometimes the screen splitted to show the condition of two person separated at the same scene.

Well, you may have your opinion about this song, but for me this this such a nice song. Please hear if you have some spare time and enjoy the words.

And I don’t know where you went when you left me but
Says here in the water you must be gone by now
I can tell somehow
One hand on the trigger of a telephone
Wondering when the call comes
Where you say it’s alright
You got your heart right

Maybe I’ll sleep inside my coat and
Wait on the porch ’til you come back home
Oh, right
I can’t find a flight

We share the sadness
Split screen sadness

Two wrongs make it all alright tonight

ALl you need is love is a lie cause
We had love but we still said goodbye
Now we’re tired, battered fighters

And it stings when it’s nobody’s fault
Cause there’s nothing to blame at the drop of your name
It’s only the air you took and the breath you left

Maybe I’ll sleep inside my coat and
Wait on the porch ’til you come back home
Oh, right
I can’t find a flight
So I’ll check the weather wherever you are
Cause I wanna know if you can see the stars tonight
It might be my only right

We share the sadness
Split screen sadness

I called
Because
I just
Need to feel you on the line
Don’t hang up this time
And I know it was me who called it over but
I still wish you’d fought me ’til your dying day
Don’t let me get away

Cause I can’t wait to figure out what’s wrong with me
So I can say this is the way that I used to be
There’s no substitute for time
Or for the sadness
Split screen sadness
We share the sadness

lyric courtesy of azlyrics.com

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Tulisan ini resminya diterbitkan di blog konversi. Monggo dibaca dan didiskusikan bareng-bareng. Monggo diklik disini “motor dc: tipe-tipe belitan?“

Blog ini sudah cukup lama berhibernasi, saya sedang kurang pede untuk menceritakan sampah-sampah kecil di kehidupan sehari-hari saya. Padahal sebenarnya a lot of things happen recently.. Setidaknya untuk mengisi ke-hibernasi-an ini, saya forward tulisan saya di blog konversi dulu. Semoga semangat untuk mengumpulkan sampah-sampah kecil itu kembali muncul.

iseng, ikut kuis personality yg dikasih temen, dan hasilnya..

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
haha.. tampak sempurna banget ya, tapi penilaian akhir dikembalikan kepada pembaca.. (alah.. hehe)

baru-baru ini saya post tulisan saya di blog konversi dengan judul yang sama, karena lagi malas co-past dari blog konversi jadi silakan langsung aja klik disini untuk baca dan berdiskusi.

gara-gara dengar lagunya boyzone yang father and son saya jadi ingat setahun kemarin saya pernah menulis ini. dan sekarang saya masih ingin untuk menulis tentang ini. tgl 29 januari dan 2 februari kemarin saya masih diberi rizqi bisa nelpon rumah dan mengucapkan ucapan selamat ulang tahun di tahun perak pernikahan sambil mendoakan semoga ayah dan ibuk selalu diberi kesehatan. thanks for always been there everytime i was down..

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bahagianya ibuk itu cuman bisa liat anak-anaknya bahagia, itu sudah cukup banget..

-ibuk-

the remembrance of silver anniversary.. hehe.. tetep langgeng selama-lamanya ya.. kalian ayah dan ibuk nomer satu

It’s not time to make a change
Just relax, take it easy
You’re still young, that’s your fault
There’s so much you have to know
Find a girl, settle down
If you want you can marry
Look at me, I am old, but I’m happy

I was once like you are now
And I know that it’s not easy
To be calm when you’ve found
Something going on
But take your time, think a lot
Think of everything you’ve got
For you will still be here tomorrow
But your dreams may not

taken from “father and son” by Cat Stevens/Boyzone